new year new year

it's going to be 2009 soon! another busy year. sigh. haha. exam is starting real soon. but i'm still slacking. teng and i are thinking of starting to study after the new year. hope it is not too late to start studying. econs and ibm are killer. now getting more and more frustrated each time i touch the notes.
hopefully after the new year i'll have more determinations to study. i really need someone to guide me! haha..

anyway.. FYI, i'm starting another blog soon. so this one will not be in used once 2009 comes! haha. so i guess this is the last post. lol.

Happy new year to all!

许哲佩-疯子

刷牙我想哭

洗脸我想哭

走路我想哭

静止我想哭

出太阳我想哭

起风我想哭

听歌我想哭

看喜剧我想哭

我控制不住自己

负担太重的情绪

我拒绝面对结局

沉重的问题我不想听

伱给的很多规矩说了很久的道理

却瞒不了我的伈

再压抑再压抑我快不行..

(天摇地动昏天暗地)

有眼泪没眼泪

伱觉得我疯了

我瞬间耳鸣听不见伱们说的

我疯言我疯语

眼泪让我瞎了

我哭我眼前世界

原来快乐要用悲伤换的

可知不知道
伱别在否认

我要的自由能不能够永生

可是我累了

我只好哭了

我像疯子的般不停的哭

我没有出路

伱也当我是个疯子

我是个疯子

classmates gathering

yea! the outing held on the saturday was a successful one! can tell many of the ppl are enjoying themselves. haha.. except the fact that matthew is kinda mean to yl. =.= hahaha... after eating at paragon's ding tai feng. we went to esplanade-harry's pub for a drink. all taste not tt bad la. only tt i feel kinda warm and stomach weird weird when i was on my way home. lol

wee chien was sort of drunk i guess. thou boon piao told me that he drank more that wc did (they shared). lol.. wc actually call me xiuyi. lol.. must be drunk. lol.

Matt also ask why i nv invite them to the outing. i was... ... stunned. then i donno how to answer him sia. so awkward. rawrs!

really enjoyed the outing. haha..

after school...

today, teng and i bought bubble tea for class during break. it was a wrong decision. lol. coz both of us were extremely urgent, and we can't wait for the lesson to end. haha.. we dashed to the toilet immediately after the lesson ends. lol. i guess we learned our lesson.

I took 184 home. and a bigger sized Caucasian came and sat with me, occupying 1/5 of my seat :(

"hah. i shall sit here" he murmured. i tried to smile back convincingly and continue to read my storybk. Don't know why, he rest a part (actually wanted to type portion, but it sounded wrong. haha..) of his arm on my thigh. Awkwardly, i didn't move till the bus terminates at bukit panjang. "is that mrt?" He spoke again. "erm.. no, it's lrt" i said softly, wondering if he knows what is a lrt. lol.. then he said sth again, but i couldn't catch it. haha.. and he said,"bye!"

"bye.." trying to smile as convincing as i could.

Unexpectedly, after i alight from the bus, he wave to me again. haha.. so did i.

Phew... then i quickly walk to bbp to catch some food to eat.

Then i saw this boy boy sitting on the osim product. he's so cute, so i took a photo of him. Then i saw his grandma and sister standing beside the 'musical car' (those that move after you insert a doller or sth) hahaa.. i guess is the grandma's idea. Free seating on the uyoyo. haha.. and the little boy seems to enjoy himself. lol...

After looking ard, i decided to donate my money to the salvation army. haha.. Don't know why, i just feel tt i can't starve a bit to earn the smile of the ppl standing beside the donation bin. haha.. (sounds so noble.) well.. my mummy says:"有失必有得".. hope my little contribution did help a little to the ppl. :D

last korean language lesson

went to esplanade yesterday for my last korean language lesson for dinner. *finally*

the bbq was nice but the side dishes isn't up to my expectation partly bcoz i don't really like veggie.

Yummy looking pics

the dinner cost me $30 over dollars. Not really happy abt it. coz they all ordered beef which my sis and i can't eat it and it's the most expensive one! wth. Unwillingly, my sis and i have to agree that they order another portion of the beef which cost like $35. and the auntie sitting in front of me told me and my sis that the beef is the most tasty meat among. F lah. Can't she show a courtesy that she shouldn't even say tt coz we can't eat the beef and we are suppose to pay for it? i tried to smile unwillingly and later ignored her. I am a devotee. so what's wrong? Please show your respect.

My sis and i decided to go home immediately after the dinner. but we knew that the auntie is also travelling in the same route as us coz she live in bukit gombak. We avoided her by 'going shopping'. haha.. Waved goodbyes enthusiastically. Little did we expect. she didn't board the previous train! but we just acted as if we didn't see her. haha..

unexpected outcomes

yawns.. finally have the mood to blog after such a long inactivity. haha..

All of a sudden, i feel that things do have unexpected outcomes. When people are appearing cheerful, actually these ppl are in great pain. Perhaps they are trying to hide their feelings. sigh. i feel so upset for them man. i donno how to cheer them up but i send my regards to you. if you need someone to talk to, i can lend my ears to you :)

cheers.